New Attitude

Why is it that we always want, what we think others have? I see so many other people that I think are living the life I want. What makes me want what that? I don't think I'm unhappy in my life. From the outside we seem to have it all. From the inside, I am thankful for all we have.



I couldn't ask for a better husband, kids, family, friends, job....... I think when we want what others have, it comes from something that is missing from inside ourselves. Whether it's low self-esteem or something else we are missing. I don't even feel like I deserve better than what I have....I just seem to want it all. I have it all, and more than I deserve. Maybe instead of looking from the outside into others lives....I should look into my own heart...where does the envy of others come from?



So many times, we have gotten exactly what we deserve and so much LESS! I look around at things I think I want and realize that I need to be thanking God for the things I have. I don't need anything. I have every single thing that I need.

I find that when I get to feeling like I'm missing out on something, I usually am. When I start feeling sorry for myself, I'm usually tired, and bored or mad. I start the woe is me....I need to remember to check myself,,,what's missing is I have been overlooking my relationship with the Lord. I'm always just so busy, can't fit in my bible study and quiet time to prepare for the day. I decide to watch all the bad news on the Today show instead of just getting up and picking up my Bible and finding out what 'HE' has in store for me for the day.

Today, I decided, what better day than a Monday to try somethings a little differently. How about I listen to nothing but Christian music. Let me go into work being lifted up instead of humming the tune to a song that's going to get me nowhere. How about when I get home, I don't turn on Dr. Phil.....I spend some time outside, or shopping with Tori. I don't try to make myself feel better by listening to the poor people that have it so much worse than me on t.v. How about we eat at the kitchen table and talk, instead of in front of the tv immersed in someone else's life? (Yeah I said it. Didn't do it, but I said it)

The peptalk actually helped. On the way to work, I listened to Nicole Nordeman. When I got into work I told everyone I was staying positive...lasted about an hour or so. If you think about it, we are the ones in charge of our emotions...we decide how and what we are going to do to handle any given situation.

I find I have to surround myself with the kind of people I want to be like. Not the kind of people who are like me, or who just plain old like me. We all have the need of wanting to be liked, wanting to have friends that look up to you. I try to act in different ways to make different people like me, instead of being true to myself and my Lord and Savior. If I am true to myself and model myself after Christ...then I can expect not to be liked by everyone. And it shouldn't hurt my feelings if maybe everyone doesn't see things my way.

I like to call myself 'tolerant' but so many times that just means wishy-washy. I have certain standards and beliefs and I should stand up for them, always. If I did, how many chances would I have to tell people about Jesus. Could that be what I'm afraid of?

okay enough for now.....going to sort some things out. :)